It's Official !

Yong Chuen is staying in Singapore. doing a no-life aerospace engineering course. self sponsored. languishing in the bullet-ridden far corner of the west. mixing with people he hardly understand or can effectively communicate with.
but he is.

I guess over the last few weeks, months and even year there had been much to think about, much to discuss over and in the end, its quite amazing that everything is coming a round circle back to the same old point i started off. i thank those who gave me good input; it was refreshing to hear from both camps. i finally had to make the decision and this would be final.
the only reason to give up the opportunity to study in LSE/Imperial would be the reprieve i have right now of dreaming big. all this while, i have been following things closely, the stable route, zhonghua, aj.. on and on. sometimes looking back, it makes me wonder how much more i could have achieved if i have not trodden this path. one can look back and argue that the present may not have been that rosy without that past but i am looking at more. i believe with my determination and potential, there is definitely much more to seek. allow me to take this uncertainty with me throughout this decision and find my true self. i believe the forest out there will still lead me to somewhere more stunning and brilliant compared to the area i gave up this very day. i believe that with my verve and determination, i can eke out something true to my ability even if it is not as successful as achievements merit. then, perhaps when the sun comes down eventually, i might return to the place where the dilemma all begun and seek the one last chance to influence/interact with students. that, i guess - after thinking for ages, shall really be the time the spark in my eye dims and not the best days of my life. it shud be left to unknown struggling, struggling to the point that i will look back and proclaim it the best days of my life. that is what i am seeking.