breathless

i can still remember the days of being 14 years old.
so beautiful.
so mysterious now.

suddenly you feel old when you are the older few amongst all.
it is really odd. it needs no reminder everytime.
perhaps that's what being 21 entails.
ops.
being soon-to-be-21 entails.
age.

flies.

the weather this week is killing. it gives you tonnes of rain in the morning and hits you with a humid patch that resonates with the searing heat. what is wrong.
it must be a way of us welcoming the f1 drivers.
it is the f1 craze now btw. it must be some fascination that i cannot appreciate, akin to soccer to some.
anyway, i am so glad to haf this weekend of reprieve. finally sat down, cleared some stuff and did some work. the recess week was really not one.
and funnily, i was only reminded of wednesday's public holiday yesterday. never realised that i have an additional day to catch up work! so happy.
every short break is that important now.
now i understand why my frens were so busy while i was languishing in the army hoping for entertainment every other day. different lives.
and now i am absorbed into it.
cant wait for soccer training for hall to start. everyday i am reminded of my jc's greatest regret, bent on eradicating it from my memories. despite giving ntu soccer team a miss since the commitment is really above the work i have now, i hope this hall soccer can take away much of the pain that still lives on. let me!
ok i am half typing, half watching huang jin lu. it was an amazing show, marred though by the pathetic-singaporish ending which is quite expected though.. so addictive! great actors too. somehow i can remember how i acted for aj's corporate video. i really understand that just the 5s of footage is that difficult to film and act. okay - i am not cut out for it haha.
now i feel sleepy.
i shall sleep.
lumber into that.