the smile facade

do you believe in destiny?

sometimes taking the mrt from boon lay is so boring until you decide to play games with yourself along the way like trying to guess the gender of the person who's going to take the seat left of you in the coming stop or daydream about some sweet fantasies that will make you realise reality is hard and crushing.

i was reading this economics text 2 nights before, its quite interesting i must say. well at least im reading it with the notion of keeping myself abreast of such knowledge and not acquiring it with university admission in mind.. finance looks very interesting when it comes to doing it for yourself, managing money but i never had any inclination of managing it for others. hmms.

there are jealous people in this world who dig comments at your achievements or wadever things you do with your principles. yea, they are always the well equipped who haf no worries about much things in life. they played computer games all the way, wrote on exercise books which they tot dropped from the sky and mugged away with 100% concentration of just work. they think you are the same as them and you shouldnt be. since they think this way, i dont see why they dont see you in a different light that when they are indulging in their fantastic childhood, you haf to take a step out of life and begin doing something an adult does. they safely assume you never had the intention to be like them, that you are an invaded alien - you do not belong.

i just got out of camp this morning and caught secret with my fren. i think im turning gay hah, like who watches such shows with a guy fren. ok wadever, tat apart the female lead in that show really looked familiar, and when i realised who, i realised the juxtaposition of the show and her. it dug deep. but wells, its an interesting plot....
do you believe in destiny?