when it hits, you feel like giving up

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
像普通旧朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么负荷
舍不得
又无可奈何

sometimes its just a hope someone somehow will read it and appreciate it.

have you ever wondered what goes thru the minds of those ants scurrying around the floor? there is this commercial on tv on the documentary of termites and their psychological behaviour that they will do everything to protect their queen. lets bring it a step higher and think if you have been blindly settling for work, busy-ness for absolutely zero purpose.

its frustrating to see the maths syllabus of the jc kids slide to an abyss of no return. its just so sad! so sad.. its really a joke to put
the onus of thinking to the graphic calculator and turn the syllabus into some "this is how to operate your GC subject". can you imagine? the entire notes they possess just simply refer to idiotproof step by step instructions on how to use the GC to solve questions. im like, GO AHEAD AND USE wad's the damn point? if its an attempt to arouse interest in maths its clearly failing, if its an attempt to make maths easier, its definitely not. it just leaves more question marks dangling instead of solving them and more uncertainty in the minds of students means there's no gain in this 2 years of pure hard work. i mean its not like people do understand the maths concepts in my era where we learnt and embraced but its the right way of presentation to anyone learning it because its no questions that's how maths is. i din know it was so bad, i shud haf shot this matter up to the perm sect of moe who talked to me and genuinely express that this h2 thing is really out of the mind esp for maths. like thanks to it people i teach find it soooo hard to understand simple concepts and use them, all they are interested is like to press values into the gc and pray it does magic. face it, it doesnt work magic, ask any FM student who sat thru the rigours of the exams, the good ones never touched the GC. they never did in the exam, it slows them down.

shit man, manu draw 1-1 with chelsea and now the match is going to be taken to extra time. chelsea is like damn dirty this time, wassup with them man. i cant stand to watch further, so dirty.
argh, i need sleep, but its extra time now.
i dread monday, its outfield until wed night. i dread it.
i cant stand managing stores outfield, im not cut out to be a freaking store man outfield. its damn frustrating to account for things. i think it just means logistics is not my cup of tea.
i still dread tmr.