lately, im into this new craze of selling stuff that i do not want online. i mean even if i throw them away, it will just be such a waste, if someone wants to offer say 10-20 bux for the stuff, why not? anyways i think you see it coming. actually no you dont, dont worry, i wont peddle my stuff here heh. :) they are all electronic gadgets and accessories anyway.

ok, im so busy lately filling up last minute scholarship application forms, looking and really exploring intensively(which i admit i hadnt done over the past 2 years) the aerospace industry and companies in singapore and UK.
so far, talking to people seriously over my options make me realise that if im really into aircraft design/manufacture, i should really look at the avenues possible and go all out. cover letter, CV, zapping all the necessary documents are what i have been doing over the past 3 days. now im still working on them. its a real hassle but i guess, like many others will say and advise, its worth the work. i must make the final push for this aerospace option and see how it may turn out. i will not lose a glimmer of hope even if there's one company left for scholarship avenue.. wells. one day perhaps i can still think of myself working alongside A380 in the hangar in Toulouse and taking a next step to being a pilot if possible.
then again, im knocking my head to contemplate the teaching option. deep down, people's words and and societal perception are fanning the idea that it is not as gd as the aerospace option. true, but so far in my time reliefing, i am looking forward to everyday, seeing people develop is also a joy. that is something i do not disagree with myself. what i am or might be inclined to detest is the admin work involved in teaching. a teacher does not only teach, that's what many others say. its true. also, the repetitive structure of teaching may finally close all downs for me and it becomes that of a mundane nature. im afraid. den my mind starts to wander off to ponder about the closeness i can get to the a380, its shiny wings, the way the tails roll magnificently out of the hangar with beautiful sunsets in the background in Germany. i begin to wander.
and when i do, i begin to wonder when it will all end up.
i am inclined and yet not inclined to take teaching scholarship at the end of the day if all falls thru. of cos, i still get to imperial and hey its imperial for a top notch education and do something that i do not detest. it is a sacrifice personally. den again, there's an option of doing aerospace eng in singapore which is not really anywhere exciting to me because of the prospects and dynamism im looking for. it just doesnt fall into place. i want to be in boeing, rolls royce, GE aviation and what not. if im working in aerospace engineering, i want to be with the best. the best brains to develop and improve aerodynamics and airplane structure. in singapore, i can only or almost only end up in MRO. ok there's no end to this, i can just go on and on. im just hoping for a solution to pop up, meanwhile i shall work hard and make any opportunity count. i wan to break even.