can i turn back time?

haf you ever tot of like turning back time for you to do something that u did not do well enough, or just missed e opportunity to do it?
do you haf regrets to not 'just do it", for wadever thing that comes to your mind?
have you ever wondered to yourself you wud haf been in a more beautiful world, more loved if you just did sth else right on a particular day or sth?
have you ever then tot again that you are serious about wanting to turn back time?
if you are, did u think twice about what you can do with your life now, minimising the mistakes you will live to regret?
perhaps you did, but again, are you serious to make yourself a better man from now on?
to live life the way you wanted it, and not for society?
are you able to put down things you are grappling with nowadays to set sights and scale your ambitions with wadever relentless spirit that you pursue?
you seek.
will you conquer?

i should stop being so egoistic thinking people like reading about what i think about life or try to influence them to my religion :p anyways, that aside, its been a real busy week, finally the tempo in ns going to go slower after this week. exercise this week was a real killer for me, i was practically juiced upside down, scolded left right centre, making me realise how fucked up i was in the field. trust me ,i know i was slow, ignorant many a time in the exercise, but im ready to make amends with the experience i haf gained. its a resolution, and its my aim. its not for anyone else, nor for the people who are looking at me, its for myself. whatever i haf attempted since pri sch or earlier, i have always put in maximum effort and done it to my best. this time round, it was nowhere good, and i feel bad for everyone who put in effort, and i will work harder the next time. i finally finished my video for the COC parade in unit, so my weekends are more free now, prolly going to find some money churning opportunities, and more soccer matches in the weekends.
oh! its jubilation now cause my debit card's arrived (: first thing im going to do is to use it to get the hotel reserved for my msia trip. its working out really well, hope no more cock ups happen and it wud be a smooth and splendid trip for the 3 of us! johor trip's also waiting, me pk jamie yeerae, looking very gd again, though its just a near overseas trip, but just doing sth in my leave dates would be good enough since i just cudnt find ppl around to settle the taiwan trip, my parents are too busy to bother abt me too.
ok im so sleepy, perhaps i shud take a short nap b4 setting off to east coast later. we haf a great plan for a bbq there later.. things have been shaping up quite well, just tat the bbq is going to be small scale, just the few guys hanging around, but its going to be cosy and great! yups, haha.