next to an angel in disguise

i think its extremely important to be contented with life and laugh off things.
there's definitely a fine line between putting in your best and demanding for what you expect and nothing less and being overdrawn into it and being sucking into a whirlpool of emotions when it just doesnt work out. of cos, its never easy to draw the line, if we could easily differentiate it, life will not be so vulnerable.
be happy! i dun understand why many people just cant be happy. yes there are things deep down that we want to shatter glasses, slam our heads onto the walls, walk into someone and punch him right down but haf you tot of letting it go and refreshing yourself. its the holding on that leaves you so much agony, self-created. there are many more beautiful things in life to cherish. take for example even a simple article in the ST on the interview with mahathir mohammad with a scathing attack on singapore can be read hilariously or like what my camp mates use to say, manager to manager talks in EPL are the crappiest stuff alive just for laughs. just laugh it out. why put up a face of anger or agony for nothing, it just takes away few minutes of your life.
you think you are not part of this equation i am coming up with but think again, how many people have fallen prey? look at ST today, some retard hacking his uncle, yesterday, some retard taking his rifle out of camp ready to zua his girlfren he broke up with. its pure idiotic ideology to do such things, the only reason to explain all these is mental disruption. is it worth it? i dont mean the punishment after committing those crimes but degrenerating to that situation of no return(losing one's mind) is such a sad thing. its like you have lived for the past years of your life for nothing. its saddening even for an outsider.
life is so beautiful. you just have to take each thing positively and you have a whole lot of funny things going around you worth a laugh, if not, a snigger if you please(if you are still seething with anger or tearing with agony, whatever it may be) just let it out. let it out and its all over. i've once been told kids never bear long term grudges and that's what makes them special. have you seen a kid commit murder or suicide? its almost zero.
even a big man can break down and cry his heart out. sometimes, like what i used to say, we all need someone in times of low spirit and i guess its really human nature to seek this companion to talk to no matter how strong he is mentally, physically. its not that the other person you see on the street to be happy as someone with less sorrows and problems than you have. he just has his ways to solve them. trust me.

in camp, we are all in a switched off mode, counting down. its such a wonderful situation right now, such a long journey we have come from. in camp today when my fren dropped his phone, we joked that the time will auto reset to 06/01/2005. the immediate reply was "i will just die if we return to that date". sighs, we all laughed of cos, and agreed in unison. i guess it happens to every batch and everyone who have been thru this lot of shit. everyone's had their equal fair share. we are just like wasting our time away everyday, hoping to avoid any problems, putting up an act just to get across each day. i mean we shudnt degrade to such an attitude but its simply not worth it in my opinion to be anywhere near tip top attitude. i guess its all our attitude now. mostly we discuss in camp that the days are still quite hard to pass and endure. its like more and more shit is coming back and we are getting whacked quite like 1 year back when we first came to unit. but i guess we are definitely holding on to the day that will dawn. when i was in sispec, i loved outfield and always motivated the rest who were struggling: "the day will always come to an end." mine's reaching soon. finally.

and oh yes, before i sign off, there's this ironic addy to visit.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/9069418@N08/sets/72157600379664072/
enjoy.