take me to the place you come from

everyone asks me why is 20 years old scary. i wonder if its just a question to start the conversation or surprisingly a genuine question that doubts the integrity of the statement. whatever it is, maybe its time for us to contemplate the age 20, or more of 21. ok, there are people awaiting this date fervently, but i cant really think of any others except NS men. maybe some look forward to this date for r21 shows, entry to certain pubs/clubs, but is that hope to reach 20/21 that aggressive because of those reasons? i think you are sad in that way den. think about how much haf you done for yourself for the past 19/20 years? are you ready to accept adulthood and the flame of office politics and the burden of voting? or you are still a poor tide rider, still stuck in the ages of dota only when the world surged towards it 3 years back, or beginning to find 'life' that you think is everything to you now? i have been having this feeling telling me not to grow up, im not ready to accept everything and i know it. if you still think of yourself as one squabbling over who should carry the curry puff in the bag into the cinema with your friends, maybe 20 years old is more than scary.

my frens and i were discussing about the use of vulgarities one day when we were hanging around in our new nest - jurong point. unanimously, no one threw in the towel and said vulgarities is not for me, im out of the picture. look, the idea here is simple, we all have our own stress and frustrations at times, and you need to vent it out. try using the word freak to replace fuck, i doubt it ever works out, well, more for the ns guys, its really a travesty to be using the equivalent simply because it doesnt get work moving or show your intensity to settle something. i really dun understand or come to terms with those who refuse to use the word, instead use replacements. yea, like you are darn guai or sth, the bloody idea to scold is there, what's the difference in the language? for goodness sake, apple was named apple just because of the dictionary, and fuck is 'bad' just because the dictionary described it to be. of cos, it doesnt look good on a person who peppers his vocabulary with only those words but den its just a simple question of codeswitching and not hypocrisy. im dead sure u spk to your mom totally diff to the way you speak to your frens, with or without vulgarities. face it, we do adopt different lingos to treat different people and its not only that vulgarities is in place that tat happens. of cos, even i disagree with a retarded punk in the mrt running around the vertical holding bar, shouting the word across to his equally stupid friend who's trying to step on his foot. perhaps, if you are those kind of person, and reading my blog, i have nothing to say, and it wud be me who would be sadden, sadden about my propagation of vulgarities to a childish punk who will take it at face value.

anyways, luckily i din stay over in camp last night. im ruining my weekends nowadays. my sunday's burnt due to guard comd, next week's given back to camp too, next next is my advanced theory test. sighs.

ok, i revamped my blog after 2 years of that same old design :p heh, pretty happy with the results, given my ill knowledge of css and html, managed to play around and came up with this design. took the entire morning man, since i was awake by 9 and having nothing to do. hope its pleasant to the eyes, and more imptly the quality reads shall sitll be continued! its not a beauty contest, but design's sth always close to my heart, and i finally did sth about the stagnant blog layout.